Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears

Hmm how do I do this one without being a downer and too personal on a blog, but it's important that my children (you) know these things, it's okay to be vulnerable and afraid, facing takes strength and I want my children (you) to see that in me.

1. The most generic fear I have is frogs, people think it is ridiculous but it is legitimate, so much so that I have jumped out of a car I was driving (no worries I was going down my driveway and my ex husband (your dad) was there to stop the car. When I was a small kid I loved frogs, I'd catch them in my Grandpa's yard and I actually took one to school for show and tell, but as a middle school aged child it changed.  I used to sleepwalk and I happened to walk outside and locked myself out, I awoke to one jumping on me.

2. I'm afraid of the dark sometimes, it only bothers me when I am home alone or I have awoken from sleeping, this stems back to my childhood.  My step-dad is the reason for this he wasn't a good husband to my mom and their fighting wasn't fair or healthy.

3. I am afraid of death, I think about it a lot, it causes me to worry so much that sometimes I forget to live.  I worry about my loved ones, my kids (you) and myself.  Maybe it's because my faith isn't as strong as I need it to be.  Maybe it's because what they teach us in school conflicts with what they teach us in the Bible.

List 20 random facts about yourself.

1.  I hate Frogs

2. I am way too sensitive and defensive

3. I love tv and movies

4. I probably enjoy cartoons more than you my children do

5. I'm sometimes scared of the dark

6. I'm very close to my sister.

7. I wish I could sometimes change the past

8. But I don't let the past rule my now or my future

9. I wish I went to church more

10. I'm an adult but I'm not always mature

11. I know I'm a good Mom but I wish I could be better

12. I had dreams as a child, as a teenager but I never reached for them

13. My childhood wasn't the best but blaming anyone doesn't help me now

14. Both my girls(you) were planned and I was married I want the same for them(you)

15. But no matter what I vow to stand by my children no matter what

16. I married way too young I wish I had waited but I don't regret it

17. I'm silly and I will embarrass my kids(you) but it's all in good fun 

18. I wish I were more driven

19. I love sweets but as I get older I don't so much

20. I love my kids (you) more than anything in this world

I completed the first day, now I think I should try to skip ahead a few days and most more to make up for the fact that I will forget to post everyday.

30 Things My Kids Should Know About Me Project

I came across this today via Facebook, a link to this blog (babymakingmachine) from one of my many liked pages. I couldn't help myself from doing this, I wish my Mom would do this for me and I will mention it to her because through everything I don't know if I really know everything I should know.  I look at blogs a lot of them and most of them are long winded so as I sit here I'm thinking what the hell do I write to make this long and well winded.

The project is 30 things in 30 days that my Lil Munchkins' should know about me.  I don't know if it will be completed in 30 days, I'm not always good keeping to deadlines but I will try and we shall see.

1. List 20 random facts about yourself
2. Describe 3 Legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears
3. Describe your relationship with your spouse. 
4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.
5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?
6. If you could have three wishes, what would you wish for?
7. What is your dream job, and why?
8. What are 5 passions you have?
9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.
10. Describe your most embarrassing moment.
11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.
12. Describe a typical day in your current life.
13. What’s the hardest part of growing up?
14. Describe 5 and weaknesses strengths you have.
15. Describe when you knew your spouse was the one or how I fell in love.
16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?
17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?
18. What do you think your spouse loves most about you?
19. How did you feel the moment you became a parent?
20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.
21. Describe your relationship with your parents.
22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?
23. What’s your favorite holiday and why?
24. What’s your favorite and least favorite thing about parenthood?
25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?
26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?
27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?
28. What’s your favorite quality in your spouse?
29. What are your hopes and dreams for your prosperity?
30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.