Hmm how do I do this one without being a downer and too personal on a blog, but it's important that my children (you) know these things, it's okay to be vulnerable and afraid, facing takes strength and I want my children (you) to see that in me.
1. The most generic fear I have is frogs, people think it is ridiculous but it is legitimate, so much so that I have jumped out of a car I was driving (no worries I was going down my driveway and my ex husband (your dad) was there to stop the car. When I was a small kid I loved frogs, I'd catch them in my Grandpa's yard and I actually took one to school for show and tell, but as a middle school aged child it changed. I used to sleepwalk and I happened to walk outside and locked myself out, I awoke to one jumping on me.
2. I'm afraid of the dark sometimes, it only bothers me when I am home alone or I have awoken from sleeping, this stems back to my childhood. My step-dad is the reason for this he wasn't a good husband to my mom and their fighting wasn't fair or healthy.
3. I am afraid of death, I think about it a lot, it causes me to worry so much that sometimes I forget to live. I worry about my loved ones, my kids (you) and myself. Maybe it's because my faith isn't as strong as I need it to be. Maybe it's because what they teach us in school conflicts with what they teach us in the Bible.
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